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Tuesday, August 9, 2011

I'm bummed!

So, I physically feel pretty crummy -- my knee's still a little sore, my lower back is KILLING me (seriously, I'm walking like I'm 90 years old) and I'm still ravenous ALL OF THE TIME. I finally got in a very gentle 30 minutes on my beloved recumbent bike today, but I have to go very slow and easy because of my body falling to pieces around me. And, you know what ravenous + much less exercise means, right? Ugh.

I'm anxious for my first appointment with the surgeon on Tuesday, but also kind of dreading it because I've gained four pounds since I hit my 5 percent. What's going to happen when I show up at the surgeon's office, and I'm sure they'll want to weigh me, and when they see I'm no longer at 5 percent, what happens then? Has anyone heard of this happening to anyone? Will they send me back to try to lose those four pounds back? Will my insurance deny me for it?

Ugh, y'all, I'm trying so hard, and sometimes it feels like I'll never make it to the actual surgery! And I'm feeling awfully petulant that we show up at the bariatric practice because we have trouble losing weight and keeping it off, and what's the first thing they say? "Lose weight." Does that sound like cruel and inhuman punishment to anyone else? ;)

Erk, sorry for the whine-age. I'm going to bed and find a better attitude in the morning. *hugs for all*


~Lisa~ said...

Trust me, I had the absolute worst time getting my approval - you WILL get there... Keep on keeping on and don't give up! You're going to do this because you are worth it!!

Amanda said...

We belong to the same surgical group and I feel certain you don't have to worry, love. They want to see (really mission wants to see) that you make a huge effort to loose the 5%. It isn't our insurance as far as I can see. I was close to the 5%, laking 1 lb I think. I also didn't get a support group meeting in and no one even batted an eyelash! If you need anything, just ask!

Fangirl Says/Monica said...

Lisa, thank you so much for the encouragement! And you're right -- I'm worth it. I just have to keep plugging along, and things will work out okay. :)

Fangirl Says/Monica said...

Amanda, bless your heart; you made me feel so much better! You had mentioned having an appointment the other day, didn't you? I hope that went great for you. :D